ADIEU 2016

2016 has been the most painful year for me and I will not deny that it is because of a heart-break that I never thought will happen. It was very tiring and draining up to the point where I found myself chasing hurt over and over again. The rest is history but I totally agree on the 5 stages of moving on after break up. I felt every stage of it and to tell you it is not easy as counting 1, 2, 3; it's like every day is a survival challenge. I learned how to face each day by all by myself and disregarded those people who truly care. In short, I lost myself in loving someone too much. But a sudden realization hit me then I asked myself, what if this happened after x years? For sure I have missed a lot of good things and experiences because I didn't let go and accept the reality. Plus, I wouldn't be more grateful just as what I am now. 

So while I learn the process of moving on.. I became closer to my family, I had more bonding time with my cousins, I had new first time experiences, I got to meet my old friends, I got to explore things on my own, I became more dedicated to my work, I got to spend more time with people who wanted me around, I shopped for myself, I go on dates with myself, I had more dates with mama, I became more open to my family, I gained self-respect, I learned how to be kind even if others are not, I went back to Him to say sorry, I learned the value of time, I had all the time in the world to do whatever I want, I've been drunk at times but that's okay, I've met new people along the way and most of all, I learned to be independent.

I thought I will never ever survive the tragedy, I thought the pain will stay forever; I thought this will never end and I thought it's the end of the world for me but I was wrong. The last 2 months of my 2016 turned out differently and unexpectedly because for the first time in a long time, I was happy; really happy I must say. :) In the span of 60+ days someone reminded of my worth and value as a person that's why I'm always thankful and blessed in little ways. I also had people around me who lifted me up and made me realize the beauty of the world out there if you'll just explore it. So, I did. And.. I will not rush on love because I'm just starting to discover and appreciate everything around me by myself -- I want to be full and I want to fill my heart with love because I want to be the best partner to my man in the future. Yihee! Haha. :D (commercial laugh)

Now as I write my good bye post to my most unforgettable but full of learning year, I only learned one thing and that is "Acceptance". The moment I felt it, I became free and alive again. It was very hard at first but you know nothing is really permanent in this world even the people around us; they come and go but life must still go on. You forgive but never forget what it taught you. You let people go because loving them will never be enough to make them stay. You cannot also take them out of your history because they have been there in the first place and they have been amazing too. So, thank you for all the lessons and sorry for all the wasted times my year 2016. It's time to leave all the pain, bitterness and hurt behind. I'm moving forward to my year 2017 full of hope, new beginnings, fulfilled plans and better self. (this time, I really mean it). Yes, I'm so ready for you 2017! :) Let the countdown begins...

Sharing some beautiful memories of my 2016..

Voltron Team Building w my Netsol friends

Welcome home dinner for Kuya Josh and Ate Jhan's family :)

Netsol Sundown Party. Finally saying good bye to my first account in Aegis.

My Wave 2.2 and 6.2 Frontier trainees in TP Alphaland.

KTV night with TP Alphaland Frontier trainers

My soul-searching moment in Cagbalete Island (first time here)

The every Friday or weekend bonding moments with my bebes (Meggy & Jona) guess who's who :D

Thank you to my #TeamSBPagMayTime for always being there for me

First time at Maghinhawa with Kuya Romer, Shade and Nhel

Welcome home Tita Thel. Lunch after Sunday mass. :)

The much needed getaway with my beautiful aunts at Mindoro & Puerto Galera

My very first rave party at Vibrant Fest with my awesome friends (Ish and Rafa) 

Celebrated my 25th birthday with these people. I love you all. <3

One of the greatest gifts I received this year is when I found a new family in IBEX Global after I left Aegis/TP. Hello to my Team Equinix Helpdesk and yes, I met new people again.

Successful Windows Training groufie.

Met these pretty friendivas of Equinix Helpdesk. ;)

Welcome Home Ate Jhei girls night out and our visit to Lotte, it's been 1 year. :( We miss you.

Badminton Fridays with the constant people plus new faces of Verizon folks

First time in the city of love, Iloilo with Mikay and Carol plus Ate Mimz

Overnight bonding with my cousins at Las Piñas

Finally! Reunited with my Banapplemates (Dy, Louie and Ely)

I'm back in Baguio but this time with my new found friends 

Met new people again during my CCT Certification with ISM trainers 

Christmas parties I attended -- IBEX Mission Possible, EHD party at Antipolo, Cheaters YEP 2016 and IBEX trainers party

Whoa! As I look at the photos I uploaded here, I can say that it's a been wonderful year after all and I survived. Thank you everyone for being part of my 2016. You are all awesome! :) <3 Time to plan my 2017 bucket list. xoxo.